02 December 2005

Sadness overtakes me sometimes...

Well, it is the truth.

I do wonder sometimes how I ended up still a single when my last relationship was a good 5 years ago. I know. It's been that long, huh? Uh, it's not like I haven't really entertained the idea of finding myself a guy, I have --- several times. It just doesn't seem to work out. Friends did say that I need not worry because I will meet him one day. Oh, yes. They speak of the Right Time [remember the usual reason, "it's just wrong timing when I met him/her" blah.] as if there is such a thing. How can you really know if it is the right time? You'd know, most people would say, like it really answers the question. Ugh. I give up.

I try to be optimistic about it and I do admit that it is fun being single, however, I do seek the constancy of having a partner whom you can rely on for your emotional [and yea, physical] needs. Oh, well... it's just one of those days that sadness of what I think I lack overtakes me. Join my pity party, why don't you? Haha.

What the bloody hell is wrong with me? Oh, just sod it.


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  2. hey... i've reminded you about this many times and i'm reminding you about it again... you were the one who gave me this, remember! WAIT FOR THE BEST!


    Everyone wants to give themselves completely to someone, to have a deep lasting relationship with another, to be loved thoroughly and exclusively… but God, to the Christian says:

    No, not until you are satisfied, fulfilled and content with being loved by me alone; to have intensely personal and unique relationship with me. Discovering that only in me is your satisfaction to be found, will you be capable of perfect human relationship that I have planned for you.

    You will not be completely united with another until you are completely united with me, exclusive of anyone or anything else, exclusive of any other desire or longing. I want you to stop planning, stop wishing and allow me to give you the most thrilling plan existing; one that you can never imagine.

    I want you to have the best. Please allow me to bring it to you. Just keep watching me, expecting the greatest thing. Keep experiencing satisfaction, experience the I am. Keep listening and learning the things I promise and mean. Be patient, that is all. Do not be anxious, do not worry. Do not look around at all the things others have gotten or that I have given them. Do not look at the things you think you want. You just keep looking off and away to me or you will miss I want to show you.

    And when you are ready, I will surprise you with a love far more wonderful that you dream of. You see, until you are ready and until the one I have for you is ready (I am working even at this moment to have both of you ready at the same time)… until you both are satisfied with me and the life I want you to have, you will not be able to experience the love that exemplifies your relationship with me… a perfect love.

    And dear one, I want you to have this most wonderful love. I want you to see in the flesh the picture of your relationship with me and to enjoy perfection and the love that only I offer. Know that I love you utterly. I am God almighty. Believe it and be satisfied.

  3. thanks, mel. it always helps to be reminded of certain things. =)

  4. Sasha Sasha. i feel ur words. hey chin up! Don't let sadness overtake u. Now it's my turn to be friend and commentor ;)

    Did i hear the words "pity".
    Remember few months ago i was in my world of self pity and you were there to listen and provide advice.

    It's role reversal now my dear ;)
    I should know all about sadness aiye ;)I'm actually surprised your not taken my dear. Or are you ;)

    I do believe you have all da weapons and qualities ( intelligence, realness, beauty,high genuine factor,.. etc..) that would have men lining up at your house with an application for me and cameron to review ;)

    no more invites to pity parties now ;) im the only one allowed to have these parties.. ;)