12 July 2007

Is it Really That Easy?

I always espoused that when love comes it's going to be easy. Things would just fall into place and all the noise will finally come to a stop.

Is it really that easy? I mean. You find someone. You guys fall in love. And then you plan to get married.

Wait. Wait. Hold it. Hold it!

There's a glitch here somewhere... ahhh... There's one. You are 12 hours apart by airplane (and that's a direct flight mind you) and that you'll be uprooting yourself to be with him.

Now I ask you. Is it really that easy?

06 July 2007

Hyperventilating, Again

He asked me, "What do you want to do with me?"

I froze up, as usual. Considering that I asked the same question bluntly a few days ago, I didn't know how to answer back.

Good thing I snapped out of my catatonic state immediately and quipped, "You said we'll go with the flow and see how things go."

I was never one to hit the brakes every so often, but in the last 4 years I've been doing just that. That's because I've met a lot of shitty guys and I've come to a point that I don't believe anyone of them anymore. But this one, I dunno, the steps he's taking, he seems to be really serious.

My friends tell me that I should go for it. If I do that, I am anticipating that a lot of things will change.

Am I just being too chicken?

The Cycle

It's just funny that one minute you think the world of someone and the next minute he does something to disappoint you and POOF! Whatever it was is gone. And then you move on.

And then you see him and think back... what the hell did I see in him in the first place? It is then you see all his flaws, his faults, drawbacks and whatever thing there is not to like in him. And then you think you hate him. Is that so or is that just your bitter self lashing back?

Well, whatever it is, whatever it was, it's all behind me now and there is always no turning back for me. He has decided to hate me. So be it. My Mom also said that guys like that are definitely not worth even a single second of my time.

I have come to realize too that there is a whole world out there and much as I wished it was as easy to Google for "The One", I am sure he will find me (or has he already?).

It's been a cycle. Meeting someone, liking him, getting disappointed, getting over it... meeting someone again... I've given up! But then another one came along... so the cycle begins (I hope with no ending...).